‘You
wouldn’t understand.’
That’s the
only words that came to mind when my wife asked me why…probably because I
wasn’t sure I understood it myself. She
asked again. This time I upgraded my
answer to ‘I just have to.’
Cindy has
known me since I was 18 years old. By
now she knows me well enough to know that sometimes ‘I just have to’ is the
only explanation I have to offer.
I’ve been a
runner for a long time. Certainly long
enough to know when it’s time to take a step back from anything that could have
adverse effects on my health and safety, such as:
·
Running across Death Valley in
the hottest part of the summer.
·
Or running 280 miles across the
width of Georgia.
·
Or celebrating my 60th
birthday by running 60 miles, then shortly afterwards running 60 kilometers as
a cool down.
·
Or running a marathon not long
after running what I said would be my last one, which was then followed by the
one after that and the one after that.
·
The same thing happened after running
what I said would be my last ultramarathon.
It wasn’t. I ran another, then one
more after that.
Those days
have come and gone. Almost.
Thinking
back over anything and everything I’ve ever tried in my running career, they
all have one thing in common: I did them because I had it in my mind that I
just had to. Meanwhile Cindy was always nervously
anticipating my ‘next big thing’ and knowing that—whatever it was—she didn’t
have a prayer of talking me out of it.
But now I’m
at the point where I realize that continuing doing things of this nature just
doesn’t make any sense.
Which is precisely
the reason I came up with this: The Last Big Thing.
This is the
one that I know in my heart will be the
last one. This Next Big Thing will
certainly be my last. I’ve been thinking
about this one ever since the idea came to me, and I’ve totally convinced myself
this will turn out to be ‘the one.’
After this I won’t have a reason to try anything else, if for no other
reason than this one is going to get everything I’ve got. After this—if all goes as planned—there won’t
be anything left for me to give.
I’m calling
it the Senoia 60 and this is how it works: I want to run as far as I can in the
60 hours between 6 a.m. Friday, October 23 and 6 p.m. Sunday, October 25. The eight-mile route will start and finish in
Haralson, Georgia but the majority of the loop that will be used for the event
is actually in neighboring Senoia. There
will be one central aid station (which will also be used for parking) close to
the spot where (SPOILER ALERT) Daryl Dixon killed his brother-turned-zombie
Merle on The Walking Dead.
Now for the
really fun part: The event is open to the public! The more the merrier. After all, misery loves company and if things
go as planned I can be assured of my fair share. The slogan for the weekend is ‘Run to the
Edge’ and was chosen with one thought in mind: I’ve been running and pushing
myself to the edge of exhaustion for as long as I care to remember. This is my chance to do the very thing I’ve
always professed to be doing all along.
I simply want to discover what my breaking point is…the exact moment when
I’ve literally fallen over the edge into true, unadulterated exhaustion. I just hope I’m coherent enough to recognize
it when it happens; if not I’m hoping the other runners (Remember: Misery loves
company. Lots of it.) will be able to
assist.
I don’t know
what those 60 hours have in store for me but this I can be sure of: Win, lose
or crawl it will certainly be my Last Big Thing.
In all
honesty it is the one remaining thing I need to do before I will be free of
having to do anything else simply because ‘I just have to.’
If none of
this makes any sense to you, then you simply wouldn’t understand.
Visit the website at: Senoia60.darksiderunningclub.com
(logo and website designed by Adamy Damaris Diaz)
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